I think I know now what means the verse that says: " I stand at the door and knock. If anyone hears My voice and opens the door, I will come in and eat with him and he with Me." Revelation 3:20.
I am the door to which Jesus knocks continually since the day He entered my life...
Precarious separation from Him triggers endless pains in me, and my heart seems to simply want to stop beating...
Be separated from Him...the shadow of death seems sweeter than that. Such thoughts threaten cutting my throat...Nothing, nothing, absolutely nothing can not separate me from Him, nor life, nor death...and I shatter when I imagine that, with horror and joy the same...
The depression my life is characterized by, becomes a killer when I try, even for a few hours, to manager it myself...without letting Him in control...
Once you have sold yourself to Him, you cannot step back, you just can't. There's an invisible force that won't let you do it. It's as simple as that. You can roar, tumble or snatch your heart out of your breast and crumble it to pieces, but you cannot leave HIM anymore...
I don't know if that's the case with every christian(even if I think it is...)but as for me I understand that he has bound me with eternal chains...and it's such a comforting thing to know that.
I've read a verse in the morning...it went something like this: "The one that unites himself with the Lord is one with Him in Spirit ..."1 Corinthians 6:17, and it's kind of striking the reverse likeness of this verse with another one: "Do you not know that he who unites himself with a prostitute is one with her in body?" 1 Corinthians 6:16


Christians may be crazy...but without Christ life and the entire world, as you perceive it, is an enormous lie...

"For the message of the Cross is foolishness to those who are perishing, but to us who are being saved it is the power of GOD."
1 Corinthians 1:18

AND THIS THE PURE JOY...THIS IS THE HAPPINESS ODE OF OUR SOUL...